Your Body Is Not The Best Thing About You
....Or the worst thing about you
Over the years, I have focused so much of my energy on my dissatisfaction with my body. I was so focused on losing the weight, how many pounds down, how many pounds up, that when I finally reached my goal (weight) I didn’t even realize it, or enjoy it. I would go into a store, find great fitting jeans with ease (that is not an easy feat!) and not enjoy my success. I had lost 45 pounds and my self-esteem was still low. I didn’t feel like I looked good, I didn’t feel confident in my body. And slowly but surely, the weight came back. When I look back at pictures, it makes me sad to think I worked so hard and looked great, and was still so hard on myself. I didn’t let myself shine. I was so used to hiding behind my body insecurities, even though the weight was gone, the insecurities weren’t. Since I had began the Paleo approach, I have noticed a difference in the way my body feels. The weight isn’t coming off as quickly as I would like, but my stomach pain is gone and I feel stronger. I would rather have a slow but steady approach rather than another quick fix. I feel more grounded and balanced. When I reach my goal this time, I want to remind myself I won’t be complete because of it. My body doesn’t dictate my value as a person. I want to be stronger. And healthier. And balanced. And happy within myself. But my body is, not who I am. My body is a part of me, and it is not the best thing about me or the worst thing.
Photography by Jayleigh Daniel